seawhispers
Just your everyday blog that goes through my wants, needs, thoughts, fears, goals; the list goes on
I just got this...
much needed boost of confidence all of a sudden today. It's so exciting. I feel fantastic.
I'm losing the weight much more quickly than I anticipated. It's almost like it's melting off. I just hope I don't hit that "plateau" before I lose what I want to lose. I'll just be quite honest with you. I was at 280 (which isn't too bad at my height...but it's still pretty terrible). I felt horrible and my health was getting to be about the same. But now I've dropped nearly 30 lbs in just 4 weeks (and you can too! -- sorry, I just had to do it ;p)...and I don't feel the need to slack off one bit. Motivation has never come easily for me. But this is different. I think I'm finally just fed up and it's something I want...so I'm pushing myself to get better and move up physically. And I am. Before you were lucky if you could get me on a track to walk. Now I'm walking and jogging up to a mile and a half. I'm playing tennis. I'm playing volleyball. I would have never thought I could be so active! lol I really wish I would've taken some kind of sport in high school (all I ever did was colorguard - which is exercise, believe me...just not enough, lol). But I'm glad I can do it now.
But anyways...back to my confidence. I feel so much better about myself. I'm happy. I have no problems being shy anymore. I'll just walk right up to you and talk to you, whatever. And to think that four weeks ago I would've never done this stuff before. lol
I love it.
I'm losing the weight much more quickly than I anticipated. It's almost like it's melting off. I just hope I don't hit that "plateau" before I lose what I want to lose. I'll just be quite honest with you. I was at 280 (which isn't too bad at my height...but it's still pretty terrible). I felt horrible and my health was getting to be about the same. But now I've dropped nearly 30 lbs in just 4 weeks (and you can too! -- sorry, I just had to do it ;p)...and I don't feel the need to slack off one bit. Motivation has never come easily for me. But this is different. I think I'm finally just fed up and it's something I want...so I'm pushing myself to get better and move up physically. And I am. Before you were lucky if you could get me on a track to walk. Now I'm walking and jogging up to a mile and a half. I'm playing tennis. I'm playing volleyball. I would have never thought I could be so active! lol I really wish I would've taken some kind of sport in high school (all I ever did was colorguard - which is exercise, believe me...just not enough, lol). But I'm glad I can do it now.
But anyways...back to my confidence. I feel so much better about myself. I'm happy. I have no problems being shy anymore. I'll just walk right up to you and talk to you, whatever. And to think that four weeks ago I would've never done this stuff before. lol
I love it.
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Those little sort of blessings...
I broke down in the shower yesterday evening. I don't know why...I guess maybe I was bottling up my emotions and hiding how I really felt not only from everyone else but a little from myself as well.
There's just been alot of things I've been thinking about. Alot of (different) questions that I wouldn't mind having answered. One of those questions being "What is the plan for me? What should I be doing with my life?" I'm a bit impatient by nature...so this one is definitely getting to me. I'm so eager to get out and do something...but I can't when I don't know what I need to be doing. I don't even know where to begin with it all. So I'm getting a little antsy...a little impatient with it.
Today I ended up calling in sick today. I didn't feel good at all...and going to work and sitting all day at a computer was the last thing I wanted to be doing. I got a bit of Bible study in...went jogging (and the only reason that happened was because I didn't do anything yesterday afternoon...I felt it necessary to be a little active today)...nothing major...just odds and ends.
But anyways...I was transferring some notes I had taken down at church the other night from one notebook to another (rewriting helps me remember...and I wanted to go a little bit deeper into it anyways) when I came across a scripture in Ephesians that I needed to jot down. So I turned there and there was a little slip of paper that read "God promises to have a plan for you" along with a couple of other scriptures. I wrote it...it's my handwriting. I just didn't remember writing it.
What a blessing! Not exactly the answer I was hoping for...but it sure did give me the patience I needed.
3Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,
My lips shall praise You.
Psalm 63:3 NKJV
There's just been alot of things I've been thinking about. Alot of (different) questions that I wouldn't mind having answered. One of those questions being "What is the plan for me? What should I be doing with my life?" I'm a bit impatient by nature...so this one is definitely getting to me. I'm so eager to get out and do something...but I can't when I don't know what I need to be doing. I don't even know where to begin with it all. So I'm getting a little antsy...a little impatient with it.
Today I ended up calling in sick today. I didn't feel good at all...and going to work and sitting all day at a computer was the last thing I wanted to be doing. I got a bit of Bible study in...went jogging (and the only reason that happened was because I didn't do anything yesterday afternoon...I felt it necessary to be a little active today)...nothing major...just odds and ends.
But anyways...I was transferring some notes I had taken down at church the other night from one notebook to another (rewriting helps me remember...and I wanted to go a little bit deeper into it anyways) when I came across a scripture in Ephesians that I needed to jot down. So I turned there and there was a little slip of paper that read "God promises to have a plan for you" along with a couple of other scriptures. I wrote it...it's my handwriting. I just didn't remember writing it.
What a blessing! Not exactly the answer I was hoping for...but it sure did give me the patience I needed.
3Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,
My lips shall praise You.
Psalm 63:3 NKJV
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James 2:14
Really not of any importance to you. I need to be able to put this somewhere where I'll be able to see it and remember to go back and look it up when I can study something different. 
James 2:14
James 2:14
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How is it okay?
christianity People stun me everyday. They truly do. Most of the time I can tolerate it. It's human nature. We all make mistakes. We all do things that we shouldn't have.
But this is has been burdening me for quite a while now. It actually started as one of the questions I was begging for answers for about someone; but I've actually started to notice it in others around me as well. And it's a bit heartbreaking to see it happening:
How can people do things that are wrong (aka "sin", if you will) and pretend everything is okay with themselves and God?
Or equally worse: How can others sin simply because they are "saved" ("Oh, it'll be okay...God will forgive me later...").
Don't get me wrong...by no means am I playing the "holier than thou" card...I'm sure at some point I've fit in both of those categories. But I've opened my eyes and I realize it's just not right.
Here lately I've been studying obedience to God...and it just seems that no one is taking God seriously...or they're taking him for granted. If you're going to do these things...why even say that you are saved? Why even try to go to church on Sundays and Wednesdays (or...whenever you happen to go to church)?
Well, what I guess I'm trying to say...is that you can't just play "Christian" when you walk into your church. You have to sleep, eat, breathe, live God EVERYDAY...not just when you feel like you need Him. That means not going out and talking about people, doing them dirty, lying, taking His name in vain...whatever else you could do that's against His word...just because you can go to church and ask for forgiveness later.
Nor can you think that just because you're saved that he'll keep forgiving you whenever you intentionally mess up. If you didn't know you were sinning, or you did do it intentionally, and you truly feel guilty/sorry for it and you truly want to be forgiven...I believe that He will forgive you. But if you knew what you were doing at the time and you don't really feel sorry for it...and you think God is just going to forgive you for it...I'm sorry, but it just doesn't happen that way.
I don't want to come across as preaching...it really wasn't meant that way...but I just don't understand how people can see it any differently.
Just think about it...what if you had a friend that you knew was talking dirty about you behind your back all the time...and when they're around you, they're your best friend? You wouldn't want that person around, right? You're not going to believe a single word they've said to you, right? You're going to think twice about whether or not you want to have anything to do with them.
I think it's about the same way with God. Sinning is the same thing as talking about Him behind His back (but He knows it, believe me).
But this is has been burdening me for quite a while now. It actually started as one of the questions I was begging for answers for about someone; but I've actually started to notice it in others around me as well. And it's a bit heartbreaking to see it happening:
How can people do things that are wrong (aka "sin", if you will) and pretend everything is okay with themselves and God?
Or equally worse: How can others sin simply because they are "saved" ("Oh, it'll be okay...God will forgive me later...").
Don't get me wrong...by no means am I playing the "holier than thou" card...I'm sure at some point I've fit in both of those categories. But I've opened my eyes and I realize it's just not right.
Here lately I've been studying obedience to God...and it just seems that no one is taking God seriously...or they're taking him for granted. If you're going to do these things...why even say that you are saved? Why even try to go to church on Sundays and Wednesdays (or...whenever you happen to go to church)?
Well, what I guess I'm trying to say...is that you can't just play "Christian" when you walk into your church. You have to sleep, eat, breathe, live God EVERYDAY...not just when you feel like you need Him. That means not going out and talking about people, doing them dirty, lying, taking His name in vain...whatever else you could do that's against His word...just because you can go to church and ask for forgiveness later.
Nor can you think that just because you're saved that he'll keep forgiving you whenever you intentionally mess up. If you didn't know you were sinning, or you did do it intentionally, and you truly feel guilty/sorry for it and you truly want to be forgiven...I believe that He will forgive you. But if you knew what you were doing at the time and you don't really feel sorry for it...and you think God is just going to forgive you for it...I'm sorry, but it just doesn't happen that way.
I don't want to come across as preaching...it really wasn't meant that way...but I just don't understand how people can see it any differently.
Just think about it...what if you had a friend that you knew was talking dirty about you behind your back all the time...and when they're around you, they're your best friend? You wouldn't want that person around, right? You're not going to believe a single word they've said to you, right? You're going to think twice about whether or not you want to have anything to do with them.
I think it's about the same way with God. Sinning is the same thing as talking about Him behind His back (but He knows it, believe me).
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March 1st, 2007
I've prayed SO much these past few days (maybe you get tired of hearing how I pray...but that's just how important it is in my world...hopefully you understand.)...and I truly believe I've been able to give that last important thing over to God to handle.
I feel completely unburdened and happy. I feel like the weight has been lifted and I've been pulled out.
Granted, I still have my worries. And things are going to happen. I know that. But I know that with whatever happens that God is by my side.
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I feel like something big is about to happen. A good thing. I've been praying that God will show me what he wants me to do in my life. I'm hoping that that's what this feeling is. It would be great, lol.
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I really want to get out and travel. So bad. I'd love to meet new people and take pictures of the places I've been and share the Lord with others. I want so bad to pack all my clothes and my camera and just head out. lol. I just want to make sure of what I need to do in my life beforehand. I'd hate to be out there somewhere when I should've been here the whole time.
I feel completely unburdened and happy. I feel like the weight has been lifted and I've been pulled out.
Granted, I still have my worries. And things are going to happen. I know that. But I know that with whatever happens that God is by my side.
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I feel like something big is about to happen. A good thing. I've been praying that God will show me what he wants me to do in my life. I'm hoping that that's what this feeling is. It would be great, lol.
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I really want to get out and travel. So bad. I'd love to meet new people and take pictures of the places I've been and share the Lord with others. I want so bad to pack all my clothes and my camera and just head out. lol. I just want to make sure of what I need to do in my life beforehand. I'd hate to be out there somewhere when I should've been here the whole time.
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